I was baptized when I was a toddler and was brought up in a time and age where science and technology was advancing rapidly. The teachings of Christ are unquestionably righteous and good, which I took to my heart, but I found it difficult in truly accepting the concept of a God and His plan of salvation for the human race. I don't know what it was but there was something missing. Sometimes I contemplated if some signs or miracles from Him would help.
As I grew in age, I gained life experience, reasoning power, and intellect in general. Compared to my earlier years, I have become more capable to form my own judgement and conclusions from facts and premises. This was when God stepped in.
I was sparked with a strong desire to search for the foundation of my Christian faith ~~~ the missing pieces. I reviewed a large amount of information, historic and scientific, skeptics and apologetics, and was able to determine for myself that the Christian faith is indeed a true faith.
Signs and miracles are great and they serve God's special purposes. In fact, I have the grace to come to know in person a couple of individuals who have had such an extraordinary experience. But for me, it is the process of seeking and discerning that gives roots to my faith. God works in the most mysterious way. Each one of us is special to Him in our own way, and so are our experiences with Him.
There are times when we will struggle with our faith, do not despair, as He always keeps us in sight. He knows exactly what we need and what is best for us. He will help us get there by ways that we do not expect, and when we are not expecting it.
In my life, sometimes I try to fill the empty places of my soul with things,
Sometimes I lose sight of, and forget that I am Your child.
Help me Lord in my lost moments, guide me back to You,
Draw me ever closer to You, and with Your gentle hand show me the way.
Let me fill all my emptiness with You Lord, and nothing else,
Help me to turn away from distraction so that I can see You always.